My Diary - Part 4, 5 and 6 blog - eskilo

Então, fui no psiquiatra hoje, tudo deu certo, apenas tenho que relaxar, não me estressar, ele provavelmente vai ler isso.Fui na academia, o único jeito de acalmar a besta dentro de mim. Jogar me acalma também, ele gosta de jogar…Não lembro de muita coisa de hoje, só sei que não pude andar de skate, e isso me estressa profundamente… Quero também me encontrar com o amor da minha vida, não pedi ninguém mais perfeito a Osíris… Geovanna <3, a única pessoa que eu e a besta compartilhamos algo em comum sentimentalmente.

21th day
So, I was at the phsyquiatrist today, everything went right, i just have to relax, not stress myself, he probally is going to read all of this. I was at the gym, the only way to calm the beast inside of my. Play games chill me too, he likes to play... I don't remember alot of things today, I just know I can't skate yet, this stress me... I want to meet with my love, I didn't ask for someone so perfect to Osiris.... Geovanna <3, the only person that me and my beast share in common sentimentaly 

Foi um dia razoavelmente bom, a coisa dentro de mim anda se acalmando, mas mesmo assim, ela surge, ela surgiu hoje de manha, durante meu pesadelo, nem lembro como ele foi…Eu to com uma vontade enorme de matar agora

22th day
Today was reasonable good, the thing inside of me keeps calm, but, it still comes out, it came out at morning, during my nightmare, I don't remember how was it... I have the incredible urge to kill now

Amanha vou comprar meu shape do skate, aquela merda quebrou tudo… 

Tomorrow I'm going to buy my deck, that shit broke up...

STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID, THAT’S WHAT MY DOCTOOR IS… STUPID. AND RIDICULOUS, HAHAHHA HE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND WHAT I FEEL.. I CAN KILL SOMEONE, LAUGH AT THEM, I TRIED TO WARN HIM, THEY WILL ALL SEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I feel like I’m expelling fire through my throat… It feels great, this is me… This is me… I’m set free for the night…

You don’t know how I feel.. how’s it 

Nem tomei o remédio ontem, me lembrei do sonho, me lembro de muita coisa, o pior pesadelo da minha vida… Esses remédios me fazem mal, não vou mais toma-los, não quero eles me atrapalhando… To nem ai se o psiquiatra ler, quero que se foda…Hoje comprei um skate novo, todo reformado, to louco pra andar no QG amanhã… Começar a me dedicar total ao skate, quero ser profissional..

23th day
I didn't take my medicine yesterday, I remember my dream, remember alot of things, the worst nightmare of my life... Those medicines makes it worse, I won't take them anymore, I  don't want them getting in my way... I don't give a thing if my psyquiatrist reads, I want him to fuck himself.... Today I bought my new skate, reformed, I want to skate at QG tomorrow... Start to dedicate everything to skating, I want to be a professional.